I've some pretty nasty things to others over this past month in particular. I relapsed on booze and took it out on you. I'm sorry for that.
Back in 2017 I fell into one of the worst binges in my life and the withdrawal nearly killed me. I vowed to never drink again and I broke that vow a month ago. I just made it through day 1 of withdrawal again.
When I get drunk I feel euphoric which is why it's so tempting for me. The flip side is alcohol withdrawal and in the state of mind I get destructive.
Again, I'm sorry for my words.
consider CBD oil as your 2ag/cb1 receptors have been downregulated (dry drunk syndrome, can't feel happy for a few months to a few years after stopping). Lazarus naturals has been my goto for years, good veteran/disability discounts. It's what many of us on the autism spectrum use (I used to drink alcohol daily to deal with it all).
Also, aminos, DLPA helped me the most. I use powder as it's cheaper but 2 of these works great and it's still fairly cheap compared to prescriptions. Polygana the best herb I've ever taken, you feel the effects pretty strong. Aminos are underrated.
Agmatine: 1g twice a day, stops the brain receptor from releasing the chemicals responsible for depressive/PTSD feelings. See this reddit post for the pubmed studies - https://www.reddit.com/r/Nootropics/comments/ht9hvr/agmatine_sulfate_miracle_substance_with_endless/
Agmatine stops the recptors that give negative emotions and get you to neutral, then the others for positive reinforcement (Alcar, dlpa, or the polygana). These combos can also treat bipolar, ptsd, etc)
ALCAR: 1g in the AM, gives energy and mood boost, produces positive emotions and allows to push through work and exercise better.
DLPA: 1g in the late afternoon as the ALCAR is wearing off since this is also for mood and producing positive feelings, this makes all 5 senses feel better, even makes food taste better. I found it in the book "Mood Cure."
NAC: 1g as needed for OCD/irritability, or addiction issues, stops mental cravings, also good for allergies (often prescribed at 600mg for mucus/lungs)
Glycine: 3g before bed for deep REM sleep, many are deficient in this from eating meat without cartilage, also magnesium is good to add to this before bed.
Magnolia Extract: half tsp to target GABA, nasty taste so get pills if you can’t stand a strong bitter taste, good for panic attacks, feels like a small amount of xanax.
Polygala Tenuifolia: to target the same receptors as ketamine (NMDA) that clinics now use for depression and mood, this being a natural herb used in Chinese medicine that’s safe and non-addictive.
Are you really sure throwing in random chemicals to the system of someone with most likely a weakened liver is a good idea?
It should be fine. The liver is VERY resilient. It can seriously take a fuck ton of abuse and still get back to healthy. It regenerates itself.
Yes. Start off the day with a piece of raw garlic and purified water with freshly squeezed lemon, your liver will love you long time.
NAC also is liver protective- may be a huge help even if he takes nothing else. (Would be good for him to take NAC if he backslides- wine makers use it regularly.)
Interesting advice all around- I’ve taken Alcar and similar but not for the above reasons. (Not the fellow you asked your question to.)
This is solid info ty.
Chromium picolinate can stop the suggestive voices. (Must take a lot to get started because you are at zero)
On the Internet, everyone is a faggot. Don't sweat it.
Glad to hear you have decided to take things in your hands again. The first day is an accomplishment. Looking forward to hearing the good news about your journey.
Speaking purely on the behalf of your liver, thank you.
Stop by consume product for self IMPROOOOOOVMENT
In all seriousness I'm in the same boat as you. I pulled the brakes on drinking something like 2 months ago. Not a new years resolution, it's been on the back burner coming down the pike for some time. I'm already starting to feel a lot better. You will as well my friend. I've been walking at least 2 miles a day and starting to do more physical exercise, it's helping a ton. Stay strong. If you do slip up don't beat yourself up. You'll feel so bad the next day you'll wonder how the hell you used to pound so many drinks a night.
You will feel better. It's inevitable.
Good luck on the mend. Take pride in the challenge. Each day that's hard to take is a day you can be proud of in the future.
Strange thing about apologies, your friends don't need them and your enemies won't accept them. One day at a time. I was not in the least bit offended
may god bless you
Alcohol is a depressant. Some people just can't have it. It's not for them. Get well soon.
Apologize to yourself--I wasn't the one you made to drink the poison. Good luck out there, friend.
That's very kind. I hope your health continues to improve!
Your vow tempts you to define yourself by your weakness, instead try vowing to resist temptations, which will continuously grow your resistance without dangling your weaknesses as temptations in front of you.
Embrace the struggle to resist whatever tempts you to drink...what is it that you're lacking which you try to fill with booze?
You ever want someone to walk you through getting The Booze Monkey off your back for good, drop me a DM.
I have a fantastic track record with drunks.
God bless you, dude. Recovery is possible.
"When I get drunk I feel euphoric" roughly 8% of people feel this way due to increased dopamine levels from drinking.. these people can actually binge drink and be super productive.
Glad you recognized you're drinking problem.. props to you!
AA meeting, steps, sponsor, and Higher Power will take away the obsession.
Please come to AA meeting.
Yes, but I don't feel good about it.
Don't apologize to these faggots..if they can't handle you at your worse they don't deserve you at your best. Fuck em
lol i love the juxtaposition of the word faggot within a marilyn monroe quote....
"If you faggots can't handle me as a degenerate, then you faggots don't deserve me at my best." just beautiful
I came up with the idea a long time ago. A vendor I had to work with was called HoLogic. Apparently it's pronounced hal-lagic but I kept calling it Hoe-Logic and the female staff at the facility was getting irate. I was telling a coworker about it and said you know that monroe quote? Could you imagine if men said that sort of shit? Like "if you can't handle me fucking your sister you don't deserve me remembering to bring flowers on your birthday". His reply was "brologic". Good times
lol dude this would make a great stand up bid. the premise is gold. you could use it as a 'call-back' joke throughout special/set even. the structure is perfect. too funny lol
You've got me actually thinking about it seriously. I used to go on rants about stuff and people would just look at me like I was from a different planet so I assumed it wasn't funny, then many years later I found a Doug Stanhope set and I shit you not it was basically verbatim the exact fucking shit I was ranting about , I was floored watching it like woah what the fuck it actually was funny I'm just surrounded by morons. I may put a set together and try it out at a local place that has open mic night. I have what I think is a pretty funny bit I've been thinking about the time I got raped. No kidding. It started with me realizing that men being raped is actually pretty funny and society definitely feels that way imo. It has to do with inequalities that are accepted by mainstream society. Eg - A woman getting raped? People would find the motherfucker and kill him. A guy getting raped? 0 sympathy only funny. And the story actually is pretty funny, the exact circumstances that lead to it were in and of themselves hysterical. I never felt ashamed or violated over it and in fact I'd hang out with the guy again I just wouldn't drink as much
go for it. i wanted to be a stand up back in the day, went up a few times. didn't like it. but still a fan. only one way to find out. some comics catch the bug and love it. do it. takes hard hard hard work but could be fun.
Falling off the wagon is such a bummer!