I've some pretty nasty things to others over this past month in particular. I relapsed on booze and took it out on you. I'm sorry for that.
Back in 2017 I fell into one of the worst binges in my life and the withdrawal nearly killed me. I vowed to never drink again and I broke that vow a month ago. I just made it through day 1 of withdrawal again.
When I get drunk I feel euphoric which is why it's so tempting for me. The flip side is alcohol withdrawal and in the state of mind I get destructive.
Again, I'm sorry for my words.
go for it. i wanted to be a stand up back in the day, went up a few times. didn't like it. but still a fan. only one way to find out. some comics catch the bug and love it. do it. takes hard hard hard work but could be fun.