I've some pretty nasty things to others over this past month in particular. I relapsed on booze and took it out on you. I'm sorry for that.
Back in 2017 I fell into one of the worst binges in my life and the withdrawal nearly killed me. I vowed to never drink again and I broke that vow a month ago. I just made it through day 1 of withdrawal again.
When I get drunk I feel euphoric which is why it's so tempting for me. The flip side is alcohol withdrawal and in the state of mind I get destructive.
Again, I'm sorry for my words.
In all seriousness I'm in the same boat as you. I pulled the brakes on drinking something like 2 months ago. Not a new years resolution, it's been on the back burner coming down the pike for some time. I'm already starting to feel a lot better. You will as well my friend. I've been walking at least 2 miles a day and starting to do more physical exercise, it's helping a ton. Stay strong. If you do slip up don't beat yourself up. You'll feel so bad the next day you'll wonder how the hell you used to pound so many drinks a night.
You will feel better. It's inevitable.