I've some pretty nasty things to others over this past month in particular. I relapsed on booze and took it out on you. I'm sorry for that.
Back in 2017 I fell into one of the worst binges in my life and the withdrawal nearly killed me. I vowed to never drink again and I broke that vow a month ago. I just made it through day 1 of withdrawal again.
When I get drunk I feel euphoric which is why it's so tempting for me. The flip side is alcohol withdrawal and in the state of mind I get destructive.
Again, I'm sorry for my words.
You've got me actually thinking about it seriously. I used to go on rants about stuff and people would just look at me like I was from a different planet so I assumed it wasn't funny, then many years later I found a Doug Stanhope set and I shit you not it was basically verbatim the exact fucking shit I was ranting about , I was floored watching it like woah what the fuck it actually was funny I'm just surrounded by morons. I may put a set together and try it out at a local place that has open mic night. I have what I think is a pretty funny bit I've been thinking about the time I got raped. No kidding. It started with me realizing that men being raped is actually pretty funny and society definitely feels that way imo. It has to do with inequalities that are accepted by mainstream society. Eg - A woman getting raped? People would find the motherfucker and kill him. A guy getting raped? 0 sympathy only funny. And the story actually is pretty funny, the exact circumstances that lead to it were in and of themselves hysterical. I never felt ashamed or violated over it and in fact I'd hang out with the guy again I just wouldn't drink as much
go for it. i wanted to be a stand up back in the day, went up a few times. didn't like it. but still a fan. only one way to find out. some comics catch the bug and love it. do it. takes hard hard hard work but could be fun.