Pretty sure the conspiracy is to get you to kill yourself, so it seems to be working, and trust me when I say, I get it. It'd be cool if you didn't die and instead figured out a way to fight in a real way against evil. Happy to help in any way that I can.
I know how you feel. Take all that, add a work injury (or even a vax injury, or a war injury) and getting fucked over on top of all that.
When my blood pressure was hitting 200/160 night after night. It wasnt living. I literally was ready to jump off a bridge if I couldnt get relief.
Im a tough guy, but chronic pain is my weakness. Im good 99% of the time but there is always that 1%, usually in the deep dark of the night when I run out of energy/hope and I feel like its never going to end.
Had they not given me beta blockers, after 7 fucking months. I likely would have lit myself on fire or something. Not because I want to die, but because I want my life to mean something.
If I thought lighting myself on fire in front of WCB would make a difference, like preventing what they did to me, to anyone else. I would do it. But I know it wont. No one would give a shit. WCB would just claim mental illness, and thats that.
As if people are mentally ill because they know society is broke. We used to call these people, aware and give them opportunity's to improve themselves and the world around them. Doesnt work like that anymore, hasnt for a long time. All it matters is $$$, thats ALL. Give them pills and if they kill themselves, just pretend like nothing happened. Meanwhile over half the population is taking some kind of anti anxiety medication.
Anyway, one of the best pieces of advice that I heard about suicide and its always stuck with me.
It really is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
If your that unhappy with your life, go join greenpeace or something. That was my plan when I was still young and had energy.
Now Im just waiting around to die. Feel like death is not far for me, and I have a eerily accurate prediction about these kinds of things.
My low phosphorous or maybe something more but my nails are fucked, brittle, discolored, im nauseous everyday, my neck is sore for a year now. No energy and Im lucky if I can sleep through the night.
Went to the walk in today, to try and get my parathyroid results from 6 fucking months ago.
Everytime I go in, they dont have a doctor. Walkin in the middle of the biggest city on canadas east coast.
Aint got fucking doctors.
Dont give up, I know its hard but suicide is harder on the people who love you, dont put them through that.
To be, or not to be, that is the question: Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, Or to take arms against a sea of troubles And by opposing end them
If you are truly so miserable, it is time for a major life change. Try moving to another country and learning a new language.
Becoming rich and powerful is meaningless. All power is held at the top anyway, so you have severe limits on what you can do.
Try volunteering at a soup kitchen or shelter. It sounds like you are pretty lonely and need to make some friends. The best kind of people you can make friends with are found in places of selfless service.
Good advise. Paradoxically, volunteering and helping others actually makes the human mind and body happy and fulfilled.
Plus, you can see others less fortunate. And you interact with humans.
OP is sad because women don't want him and he won't have a family. But that happen a lot in history. You can literally find happiness by helping others. This is a a forgotten wisdom..
Plus you can network and maybe attain some status.
Tap a psychedelic; DMT, mescaline, ibogaine, go big and hard, melt your brain, die a little death and if meant to be you will be reborn, a flaming phoenix from the ashes, the fires of wrath and then set upon your oppressor with rage and fury.
Well I don't have any diseases or anything but I'm an old guy who never married, tbh I'm just kinda ugly and a bit socially awkward and also was never motivated enough to really try, I enjoy doing things my own way and having my peace and alone time, I'm sure some people have wondered if I was gay or asexual or whatever but I just sort of naturally have always been a friendly hermit socially, lots of acquaintances for good convo but then my home is my own, all of this just to say that it's not some terrible fate unless you decide it is, messages about "hope" are irritating to the mind when "hope" isn't even necessary, just casual acceptance, to each their own but I live for things like breakfast at my favorite diner, listening to my music while relaxing on the porch with a drink at sunset, the rewarding feeling I get growing high quality raspberries, stuff like that, life is supposed to be simple with various little joys, think about how our species experienced life for thousands of years, that's what normal
Everyone's life has different challenges, that's what I always say to people to keep them from dwelling on unfortunate circumstances and events from my own life, because I have dealt with some difficult and unusual things. I'm sorry to hear what you're going through, and can't claim to understand it (because I'm not experiencing it) but you are meant to fight and rise to the challenges you're facing. Killing yourself is the ultimate loss, especially without doing anything of note, don't take that L. At least infiltrate a bilderberg meeting or something if you feel like there's nothing to live for
You feel bad because you have no purpose. A man needs a purpose. Work is purpose. A man needs work. Men who do not work, and work hard and physical jobs get depressed because they have no feeling of accomplishment. I felt the same way when I was young, struggled with the idea of working your life away, but you come to appreciate it. Work hard and good things will come your way.
Do you have kids? I'm not suggesting you should to try to fix anything. It just sounds like you don't feel like you have a purpose and that's what I really mean by the question. If no kids, then what is your purpose, what is the thing that brings you a modicum of sanity and relief?
If there's nothing - which I understand completely, I've been there - then I don't know what to tell you. You're the only one that can decide if life is worth it or not. I hope you find peace
When the lion hungers, does he sink his claws into his own flesh?
Don't harm yourself until you've tried harming the ones making your life so difficult. (Not "random bystanders who take part in the system" but the actual people causing your problems.)
what if reincarnation is true and the world you end up in next time is based on what you personally do in this life. what if you are your own butterfly effect essentially.
what if kys from negative response to this fucked up system is a win for the system which then in turn is worse for (a) others here and (b) you in the next life.
what is a good life, working for this hellscape zog system, or disconnecting from that and maybe just living on a cheap plot of land or something.
Pretty sure the conspiracy is to get you to kill yourself, so it seems to be working, and trust me when I say, I get it. It'd be cool if you didn't die and instead figured out a way to fight in a real way against evil. Happy to help in any way that I can.
I know how you feel. Take all that, add a work injury (or even a vax injury, or a war injury) and getting fucked over on top of all that.
When my blood pressure was hitting 200/160 night after night. It wasnt living. I literally was ready to jump off a bridge if I couldnt get relief.
Im a tough guy, but chronic pain is my weakness. Im good 99% of the time but there is always that 1%, usually in the deep dark of the night when I run out of energy/hope and I feel like its never going to end.
Had they not given me beta blockers, after 7 fucking months. I likely would have lit myself on fire or something. Not because I want to die, but because I want my life to mean something.
If I thought lighting myself on fire in front of WCB would make a difference, like preventing what they did to me, to anyone else. I would do it. But I know it wont. No one would give a shit. WCB would just claim mental illness, and thats that.
As if people are mentally ill because they know society is broke. We used to call these people, aware and give them opportunity's to improve themselves and the world around them. Doesnt work like that anymore, hasnt for a long time. All it matters is $$$, thats ALL. Give them pills and if they kill themselves, just pretend like nothing happened. Meanwhile over half the population is taking some kind of anti anxiety medication.
Anyway, one of the best pieces of advice that I heard about suicide and its always stuck with me.
It really is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
If your that unhappy with your life, go join greenpeace or something. That was my plan when I was still young and had energy.
Now Im just waiting around to die. Feel like death is not far for me, and I have a eerily accurate prediction about these kinds of things.
My low phosphorous or maybe something more but my nails are fucked, brittle, discolored, im nauseous everyday, my neck is sore for a year now. No energy and Im lucky if I can sleep through the night.
Went to the walk in today, to try and get my parathyroid results from 6 fucking months ago.
Everytime I go in, they dont have a doctor. Walkin in the middle of the biggest city on canadas east coast.
Aint got fucking doctors.
Dont give up, I know its hard but suicide is harder on the people who love you, dont put them through that.
Ok if you have aids, you still have value. There are lots of bug chasers who would love to have your company. Their is a community waiting for you.
Also, you can find testosterone from your doctor or whatever the laws are and it will make you feel better.
Yes
If you are truly so miserable, it is time for a major life change. Try moving to another country and learning a new language.
Becoming rich and powerful is meaningless. All power is held at the top anyway, so you have severe limits on what you can do.
Try volunteering at a soup kitchen or shelter. It sounds like you are pretty lonely and need to make some friends. The best kind of people you can make friends with are found in places of selfless service.
Good advise. Paradoxically, volunteering and helping others actually makes the human mind and body happy and fulfilled.
Plus, you can see others less fortunate. And you interact with humans.
OP is sad because women don't want him and he won't have a family. But that happen a lot in history. You can literally find happiness by helping others. This is a a forgotten wisdom..
Plus you can network and maybe attain some status.
Tap a psychedelic; DMT, mescaline, ibogaine, go big and hard, melt your brain, die a little death and if meant to be you will be reborn, a flaming phoenix from the ashes, the fires of wrath and then set upon your oppressor with rage and fury.
Well I don't have any diseases or anything but I'm an old guy who never married, tbh I'm just kinda ugly and a bit socially awkward and also was never motivated enough to really try, I enjoy doing things my own way and having my peace and alone time, I'm sure some people have wondered if I was gay or asexual or whatever but I just sort of naturally have always been a friendly hermit socially, lots of acquaintances for good convo but then my home is my own, all of this just to say that it's not some terrible fate unless you decide it is, messages about "hope" are irritating to the mind when "hope" isn't even necessary, just casual acceptance, to each their own but I live for things like breakfast at my favorite diner, listening to my music while relaxing on the porch with a drink at sunset, the rewarding feeling I get growing high quality raspberries, stuff like that, life is supposed to be simple with various little joys, think about how our species experienced life for thousands of years, that's what normal
Do as thy WILT is the whole of the Law.
Otherwise you can go to a pro-death country like Switzerland or Canada.
Everyone's life has different challenges, that's what I always say to people to keep them from dwelling on unfortunate circumstances and events from my own life, because I have dealt with some difficult and unusual things. I'm sorry to hear what you're going through, and can't claim to understand it (because I'm not experiencing it) but you are meant to fight and rise to the challenges you're facing. Killing yourself is the ultimate loss, especially without doing anything of note, don't take that L. At least infiltrate a bilderberg meeting or something if you feel like there's nothing to live for
You feel bad because you have no purpose. A man needs a purpose. Work is purpose. A man needs work. Men who do not work, and work hard and physical jobs get depressed because they have no feeling of accomplishment. I felt the same way when I was young, struggled with the idea of working your life away, but you come to appreciate it. Work hard and good things will come your way.
Do you have kids? I'm not suggesting you should to try to fix anything. It just sounds like you don't feel like you have a purpose and that's what I really mean by the question. If no kids, then what is your purpose, what is the thing that brings you a modicum of sanity and relief?
If there's nothing - which I understand completely, I've been there - then I don't know what to tell you. You're the only one that can decide if life is worth it or not. I hope you find peace
When the lion hungers, does he sink his claws into his own flesh?
Don't harm yourself until you've tried harming the ones making your life so difficult. (Not "random bystanders who take part in the system" but the actual people causing your problems.)
It's too late for you.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=aFnbDPXNDmw
Its too late baby Carole king
what if reincarnation is true and the world you end up in next time is based on what you personally do in this life. what if you are your own butterfly effect essentially.
what if kys from negative response to this fucked up system is a win for the system which then in turn is worse for (a) others here and (b) you in the next life.
what is a good life, working for this hellscape zog system, or disconnecting from that and maybe just living on a cheap plot of land or something.