Awesome. I am extremely grateful for your time and guidance. I will remember these suggestions and put them into practice immediately.

I was aware of the MK lsd experiments and the consequences. That is an interesting anecdote of your fathers and likely the case. I do follow MAPS and the studies done in various places to bring psychedelics into medicine; that's basically what I'm doing here to myself, or did. I was able to see the situation from an external perspective and adjust emotional imbalances, I'm trying to help my mom and brother now as they have similar dispositions. It would help a lot of the mental issues if we could openly confront some of the dishonesty, I agree.

I sure appreciate your open-minded kindness and willingness to accommodate alternative angles.

Concordance! That's what I'm learning now. Thanks, yeah I'm new to sincere biblical study, I have read portions, passages, sections, my whole life, I tried to read the whole thing cover to cover in I think around third grade but I've never done that properly. I'm usually reading 5-10 books at a time, I'm buried in the other ancient works, the Vedas and some of the weird ones like Oahspe, Edgar Cayce's works.......I understand this may cause discomfort to you...I apologize; I am reading EVERYTHING, mostly have it finished, like I said I had a sincere and authentic divine experience and basically, I want to understand it. I know some Christians would oppose this additional alternative exploration, so I do apologize but I don't want to mislead you in my intentions.

https://www.brianmuraresku.com/the-immortality-key This is a new work that shed a lot of light on the Mysteries at Eleusis and whatever they were doing and how that transferred to the early Christians, these guys were doing something more proactive in the psychedelic sense which I would like to re-define and apply now and here.

I welcome any and all reference to scripture which may assist. I have an app, the Blue Letter Bible on my phone, which has helped me immensely. It has all the translations, I can highlight and bookmark passages, I've been using it mostly to investigate the pharisees issue but I know there is A LOT to investigate. I've been so thankful for my sunday schooling...I never liked congregation all that much, but my church upbringing is serving me so absolutely well at this time of struggle. I paid attention!

My thinking is something along the lines of intentional manifestation. When physically performing the act, consciousness is focused in a gracious, thankful, humble pattern. It's an opportunity to slow the mind, quiet the chatter, silence the constant voice and connect directly to God. My favorite thought to focus on is to concentrate as hard as I can on that connection (I had the tryptamine experiences so it's very visceral) and consciously strengthen that binding between us. Obviously it's a great mystery what all this is exactly, I'm sure there's terminology for this act, I'm just unaware. Anyway, getting to the point, why do this intermittently? Why not make your base conscious pattern one of permanent prayer? To me, it's an exercise in mental control, discipline, clarity of thought, intensity of intention...what do I want? I really want to mold my external world into a more constructive and positive experience. I will pray that into manifestation. :)

Hopefully you are growing to be able to experience this communion without drugs?

Definitely, yeah, now. I'm into high endurance physical activity. Prayer is permanent. Prayditation,.

I'm very diligent in my application, I don't have any wild stories other than that it is a MIGHTY POWERFUL experience that easily defies all language, wording ability, it is a stupendous shock and immediately, instantly made me think of biblical events. I was not truly alive until then. Fortunately I grew up going to church, I was baptized but I never really gave that much consideration. I get it now. No, I don't attend church.

I actually got into JC after I started smoking dmt. You know, it happens and....you're like, "oh, there is something to this after all."

look for books by Joseph Farrell

Amazing comment, thanks! You know your stuff!!!

Communism is judaism. I got a death threat on retarddit for saying just those words. Isn't that kind of a strange statement to take offense from?

If anything, it is the Caucasian male who makes the world worth living in. I personally contribute; I've never done anything like what the media claims but I sure as hell am PISSED OFF now though.

I appreciate you sir.

That company is despicable beyond words. I thought FOX in the 00's was as low as it could go. Nope.

http://stealthskater.com/Home.htm

You'll get a kick out of this.

There is definitely an aspect of intentional negativity focused to suppress inspiration.

I've seen that Kautz-Vela lecture, very compelling. The girl isn't a thot at least, she may be Q-wacky but at least she isn't a slut.

OK, that is a beautiful human being, thanks.

Oh yeah, go 100% all in, every angle should be considered, I wish you the best.

from u/brahbruh:

Crypto is a great way to avoid USD, but its existence is also purely based on the Internet. If the Internet is broken up, even into a few regions, existing cryptocurrencies are fucked. This is an underrated and almost entirely unknown problem WRT crypto.

This comment lit the flame of victory for the day!

DMT induced entity contact with telepathic instructions; "make sure your intentions are absolutely clear". Numerous experiences of similar overwhelming wonder and joy at returning "home" and realizing this is all a cosmic joke to that side of things...so, chill out. Extreme emotions... It allows for a redefinition of your reality perception.

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/51174256-the-immortality-key You definitely should read this.

As a former near-degenerate.....this concerns me as well. It's not as fun as it looks. It's unclean, it rots the spirit, it weakens the mind. I actually am pretty new to the extent which these people' push this. I had no fucking idea they were so delusional. DAMN RIGHT I'm questioning the holobunga......I know you fuckers see this!!!

Suspicious timing regarding exposition of the Mega Group Epstein pedo blackmail operations........U of Alaska Fairbanks building 7 study results.........HK resistance.....Someone decided to pull the trigger.

I am definitely not in Kansas anymore.

They're at the bottoms of and beneath the worlds major oceans, likely indigenous to the Earth. At this time it is evident our entire history is a lie.