now I’m a lot closer to Yeshu. He told me, I have cast fire upon the world, and see, I am guarding it until it blazes. He also told me to come close to him near the fire, so I can be close to the kingdom.

u/Graphenium and I have found that there's enough bridge between Thomas and those other gospels that your other statement is immoderate:

Christianity as practiced today all over the World is absolutely false. 100% deception.

What would be absolutely true in your opinion? You have an experience, it seems, how can another person objectively test your experience to see if its source is absolutely true?

The pharisees and the scribes have taken the keys of knowledge and hidden them. The prison is your mind, the lack of knowledge. That’s why THEY erase all your memory before you are born into this world. So you don’t know who you are and where you came from. And when you die the deception takes over, that’s why THEY work so hard to brainwash you in this life. So you’ll have no chance to make the right choice when it comes to the next life, e.g. “What’s next?”. And you think it's destiny, or karma, or something like that. It's not.

Pharisees are memory erasers now? This is too hastily said. The "memory loss" you describe is the result of a divine thought being compressed into a sparked zygote, it's not a true loss but a severe fractal compression that creates a new Self-Other paradigm. Without getting your terminology sufficiently exact you won't have hope to get it right in this life, and you may have some difficulty rightly interpreting the next too.

The first reference to gnosis is when Paul warns us against pseudognosis. It all flows from those two kinds and it's essential to know the difference.