Pay some of your bills ahead of time, spend some on something fun, spend more on something that will retain value.
Get an electric bike, a new rifle with a bunch of ammo, and get some dry food.
Life isn't worth living if there's no fun in it, but that's not to say you should go live a life of hedonism and excess.
life isn’t worth living
You can just stop the sentence there, honestly.
Are you agnostic or atheistic?
What’s got you down? Life stuff or politics? If you’re thinking about dying maybe immersing yourself in this toxic sludge isn’t doing you any favors. Don’t kill yourself. I think many things are orchestrated to make as many people as they can commit suicide. Don’t fall for it man. Just cut out the toxic culture and refocus on what’s important to you, your faith, your health, and goals. You got this.