thanks to nova scotia poisoning me. (I know I got to stop bitching about this, but fuck its a hard thing to get over, really)

I know they deliberately killed my body but that's okay eh...

Where is your sense of survival? If they had scarred your lungs instead with a knife would you have defended yourself? What if it was a bear that had attacked you? Would you have defended yourself from that?

It's not about whether you bitch/complain, is about whether you defend yourself from attack and remove the threat.