I feel like you described my struggle perfectly. I just have this overwhelming negative outlook to the point I can't wake up and smell the flowers in good moments. I lost a girl that I should have married because of this negativity, and absolutely obsessing over anything to do with the NWO/reset. I realized even if you are going through hell, men have to create as much stability as possible for women and children no matter how bleak things are. Wish I would have realized this earlier. The NWO got what they wanted because their opposition (me) failed to start a family and got so demoralized I couldn't function. It good to hear other people know how it feels, and are learning to deal with it. I swear it's not the enslavement of humanity that gets me so freaked out, it's the fact that everyone is so oblivious and walking right into it. Makes me feel insane.
Thanks man, I'll work on those since I'm starting over again. I had basically all those factors in line except my emotions were out of control, which is about the most shameful reason to fail. And your advice that I'm the worst at, "Always be willing to recalibrate and look at past mistakes." I really got to work on letting things go and not obsessing over mistakes, glad you pointed that out. Well my career has been too stagnant, and definitely got to hit the gym like crazy, so good place to focus. Been drinking and whining like a liberal too much.
I can tell the same (i'm about at a full front lever fitness level), but frankly with the "peace of senses" coming from semen retention i hardly even look at women as i'm not interested in cooming at all. I even gained a distaste for it.
So it kind of make lots of room for good self focus and avoid a lot of negative thought generation because i can feel happy in a lonely future vision too.
Females are good to add to a good life, but they don't make one themselves, and if you need a girl to enjoy yourself you will always be tagging behind. Porn is but a reflection of this need, imo.
I feel like you described my struggle perfectly. I just have this overwhelming negative outlook to the point I can't wake up and smell the flowers in good moments. I lost a girl that I should have married because of this negativity, and absolutely obsessing over anything to do with the NWO/reset. I realized even if you are going through hell, men have to create as much stability as possible for women and children no matter how bleak things are. Wish I would have realized this earlier. The NWO got what they wanted because their opposition (me) failed to start a family and got so demoralized I couldn't function. It good to hear other people know how it feels, and are learning to deal with it. I swear it's not the enslavement of humanity that gets me so freaked out, it's the fact that everyone is so oblivious and walking right into it. Makes me feel insane.
Thanks man, I'll work on those since I'm starting over again. I had basically all those factors in line except my emotions were out of control, which is about the most shameful reason to fail. And your advice that I'm the worst at, "Always be willing to recalibrate and look at past mistakes." I really got to work on letting things go and not obsessing over mistakes, glad you pointed that out. Well my career has been too stagnant, and definitely got to hit the gym like crazy, so good place to focus. Been drinking and whining like a liberal too much.
I'd say video games are arguably a good "bad" choice, in that they only fizzle the circuits slightly and allow for needed relax.
But porn is a bad "bad" choice.
The dopamine from semen release and the bodily consequences play a huge part in the domesticated man lifecycle.
Sure, i'd just advice against it if possible.
I can tell the same (i'm about at a full front lever fitness level), but frankly with the "peace of senses" coming from semen retention i hardly even look at women as i'm not interested in cooming at all. I even gained a distaste for it.
So it kind of make lots of room for good self focus and avoid a lot of negative thought generation because i can feel happy in a lonely future vision too.
Females are good to add to a good life, but they don't make one themselves, and if you need a girl to enjoy yourself you will always be tagging behind. Porn is but a reflection of this need, imo.
Yes, be a servant.