There can be no satisfaction for them, nothing lasting anyway. We are dealing with evil and evil delights in your misery and is an empty pit of nothingness and despair. The goal is to twist you and turn you into a monster, I believe. Please know that although I can't imagine what it's like for you right now, you are not alone and I wont give advice I myself wont take. Having said all that, do not compromise with evil, whatever that may look like, be it the new drug they're injecting or the ways they try to turn your heart away from goodness and God, do not compromise. They can take your body and they can strip your mind, but those things are not what makes a man. You brought up Christ and my best advice is to lean on him with all your weight, he will hold you up. I will pray that God is very close to you in this increasingly crazy season of life. Good luck dude.