A lot of gay men i speak with had their first sexual experience as a child with a teen or adult. It’s very possible conversion therapy may work for, these folks, who, as Kyle put it “those imprinted with their sexuality at a young age.”

But those same gay men i speak with aren’t interested in heterosexuality whatsoever. And I hold no judgements over them. I’m all about consensual adults doing what consensual adults do.

And honestly, this happened to me as a child. I was 9 and he was 15. I thought it was consensual because he gave me the “pretend i’m a girl” schtick. But then he locked the door and afterwards threatened me if i told anyone. I don’t know how my sexuality would’ve developed had that not happened. I am attracted to men in a way that’s pseudosexual, and I’ve dated men, and tried to get into it, but never went “all the way.” they were all so damn feminine, it was just weird, and I prefer women sexually.

Brokeback Mountain was cool in a way, because while Jack Twist was gay, they were manly men, Ennis got lonely and bored just fell in love with the guy. i struggle with a lack of male intimacy with men, like sharing a bed with a friend when on vacation or horseplaying around, deep intellectual conversations. Being vulnerable and opening up about our inner thoughts.

The first six issues of the comic Midnighter is collected in a graphic novel. These people from far in the future pick him up and go on a mission. One of the ladies asked if he’d like to fuck and he was like, “nah, i’m gay.” And she’s like “what’s that?” She then explains that noone thinks about it in the future, they don’t have words for bisexual, gay, and straight. It’s all just sex and relationships based on consent of the individual.

And who even knows what roles the plastics and chemicals around us have in shaping the parts of our brain associated with sexuality.