Thanks, I appreciate it.

I spent most of my adult life searching for answers and meaning, but there were precious few truths out there that truly resonated with me. I made the mistake of focusing entirely on external data/stimuli and attempting to grasp concrete and specific concepts- as if there were supposed to be tangible "missing pieces" in the physical world that I needed, that I could use to complete myself. I never "found" those pieces, in all my years of looking. But eventually I discovered that- while external stimuli/data is not in and of itself the "source" of realization and truth- it can serve as the catalyst by which these concepts are born, these truths are realized within a person.

As the years passed, they would bring some dark times that tested the strength of my soul and (truthfully) my will to survive. These were years that I spent alone in life, without any useful emotional or psychological support. During said period, I was faced with challenges more difficult than I could have ever previously imagined. As a result, I was constantly forced to retreat inward- where thoughts and ponderings became a sanctuary, a sort of shelter from the hopeless. The catalyst. As a result of those reactants, I explored a world within my own consciousness that I was previously unaware of- and I experienced states of consciousness, sensations and "feelings" that I would have never guessed existed. It was a new depth to my existence.

There is much value in the abstract, the intangible and incomprehensible. A great deal of unwritten truth hides between the written "lines" of tangible data. The incomprehensible is just as important as those things that we can comprehend. What you need- every answer and every realization- already exists within you.

There is a "source" of sorts that you can connect with if you can leave yourself behind. And when that happens, the result is what some might call a "spiritual awakening," an "epiphany-" not exactly sure what to call it, myself. But there is far more to this life and human consciousness than many will bother to experience.