Earth might as well be called Hell now because it absolutely feels like it's going to fucking hell big time.

If the elites intended to make people hate themselves, lose their sanity, become nihilistic and even go as far as wanting to eventually commit suicide.. then I gotta give it to em honestly, because they're doing a damn good job in making me feel that way.

And at this point, I'm thinking it is actually pointless to fight back against the elites. Because seriously, too much damage has already been done anyways. What would fighting back honestly accomplish? What would we have to gain by doing so? And I'm beginning to think that none of us have the literal physical capability of winning against the bad forces. Like that's probably why we don't even try. Because even if we actually dud try to fight back we'd fail fucking miserably at it and still lose anyways. I have no confidence in us winning a shooting war if it ever came down to that.

The only reason I have yet to kill myself is because it has to get worse first. It won't look very justified for me to kill myself right now as the state I live in is still intact at the moment, it will have to get a lot worse later for me to do it so it will look more understandable for me to off myself. But I don't believe I would even want to witness the worst that is yet to come.

And to be honest, when shit gets further south... why don't we the people as a whole just perform mass suicide events? Because there isn't really anything worth living for, at least not later on. What would we have to lose by offing ourselves amass? A year ago I believed suicide was never an answer for anything but honestly, the beginning of this year has proved to me that the world is bad enough to not worth existing in to the point suicide actually indeed may be a legitimate answer.

Not sure when I'll off myself. Maybe late this year or the next. Definitely before 2024 if no tides turn which I don't see happening. And if it really gets that bad with no way of ever turning it around, people that refuse to suicide are honestly masochistic.

All my family took the vaccine except for myself.

I've read all the horror stories.

It's been said that everyone vaccinated will die within 2 years or less.

Meaning my family will just die off in 2 years for taking this shitty cocktail. They wouldn't die off later if they never took it. They could've so easily declined it. I wouldn't be able to cope with their deaths.

Because of that, it makes me contemplate suicide. I figure after they die, I might as well sign up for euthanasia to die with them. By euthanasia, I'm just referring to the lethal injections that kill quickly, what they've used in the past for people that wish to die to exit their misery.

But if I can't get euthanized then I think I'll have to use a gun or noose to end my existence. I will be in too much agony and misery from my family's deaths to where only killing myself can help me get rid of the pain.

The saddest part is that I'm only 21 and already potentially so close to losing all family and having my life ruined.

None of them have yet to have any serious side effects but I know that mesns nothing because it's only been months. Months is short term. Years is long term.

I feel like a spiritually short lived, failed life already.