Sometimes I wish that I had never begun questioning things, sometimes I wish I could go back to being wide-eyed and optimistic about the world, unaware of the realities that have been hidden in the past, present, and future. In my experience, ignorance could well have been bliss, as an awakened life is certainly not a happier life.
The one truth I have not been able to uncover is that of purpose and of meaning. Every goal that I once had, my dream job, aspirations, plans for the future, children etc. have all been whittled away upon realizing that everything we have ever been told is a lie, and is continuously built upon by more lies. Our governments and neighbors have sold us down the river, and society is increasingly foreign (in both the literal and figurative sense), hostile, unwelcoming and expensive. People screw each other over for financial incentives, and all that matters is materialism. Hell even if you try to live a pure life, you cannot escape every one else.
Governmental endorsed mass immigration has destroyed culture, identity, economy, safety and security. Of course, the knee-jerk reaction is to scream 'fight for the west and our values!' - to which I ask, 'what values?' we have become a weak whimper of a society: men who think they are women, drag queens, refugees welcome, gay pride parades, feminist harpies and the grooming of children (to name a few). This madness is our 'western values' - values which we cannot question openly without facing censorship or legal repercussions. We are utterly powerless to do anything about any of this. Add to the fact that Joe normie hasn't got the faintest clue and couldn't give two shits either way so long as they have bread and circuses.
My question to those out there who question authority, delve deeply into narratives, look beyond lies and seek truths and have been at the milestone I am now facing: how do you find contentment these days? How do you go on knowing the absolute state of the world, knowing there is nothing you can do, and nowhere you can run? I am at a point where I see no optimism in the future and question what the point is in continuing in a world so full of deceit, corruption, evil and stupidity.
How did you find meaning and purpose?
Spite - doing everything you want to do that they don't want you to do, simply because you want to.
What “purpose” do you think you need? What “meaning” have you defined that you’re lacking? I don’t know you from a hole in the ground dude, no one here can give you explicit direct instructions for your situation without knowing you. Telling someone to grow a garden when they live in a tiny apartment with no access to any dirt is terrible advice even though convincing people gardening is important is generally good advice.
I go on knowing I’ve been lied to my whole life, abused and demonized for doing nothing wrong, and that life isn’t fair and it was never going to be.
Every day you’re alive doing what corrupt pieces of shit don’t want you to be doing is a good day. You’re the thorn in the side of horrible people and your very existence causes them grief. Embrace it.
Don’t give into childish fantasies about how everything will be fine as long as you join a cult, and that magic sky daddy wizard will fix everything after you die. Improve yourself. Find a hobby that brings you joy. Adopt a shelter dog and give it the best life it could ever have. If you have land grow and raise your own food and be part of the world they just can’t stop.
You just being you, a questioner looking for the truth, enrages the sheep that want to hand all control over to authority figures like the whole world is grade 1 and we all must obey teacher. The quest for truth is purpose in itself, but you can do so much more.