A friend of my ex, a public health nurse who wanted to give me the jab, couldn't contain her joy at wanting less white men on earth. The jab she was going to give me was not going to be chilled (as per the instructions plastered all over tv), she had some ivermectin on her counter at the time and she wanted to jab me privately in her own home, completely detached from medical observation. Her friends were already calling me a nazi in public so I kind of put 2 and 2 together with the "white man" comments (then seeing the Dr. Carol Baker video) and started to get a real dark feeling inside me about the whole mess. Then when I didn't take it, almost everyone in my circle abandoned me, shunned me and slandered me. Friends, family, relationship, mostly ruined now. I got kicked out of where I was living and later was outed at work for not having taken it and a bastard there had the fucking balls to call the county public health department and singled me out to them. I had to move 3 or 4 times and was basically homeless for a short time. My life got fucking destroyed.

Before I moved, I experienced the Summer of Love firsthand. Terror is witnessing your city get burned down while you're living in it and then watching the local and national news run cover for the monsters who did it. Driving through what looks to be a war zone just to try to make it to work on time and not appear to be bothered by any of it. Kafka would blush upon hearing the story of the last decade of my life. I'm still trying to make sense of it all, have a big spreadsheet with dates, texts and events that illustrate the total tyranny of living around such petty, mindless, imbeciles, but it just makes me sad to think about it now, how much I lost.