Living your life under the guises of "what ifs" is not going to get you anywhere. The grand conspiracy is to get you thinking about the most random craziest shit whilst neglecting yourself and your loved ones. Everyone wants to change the world but no one wants to change themselves. OP, be the change you wish to see in the world. You're a creator, for the Creator(s) created you. Go create.
“God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.”
There is no "THEY" there is only "YOU" -- Omm Omm o mani padme om
(actually there is a THEY but you can't do much about it... you have to work on yourself, with one eye peeking open at 'they')