there does seem to be some "universal" rules out there, parameters that cant be broken. in a universe created out of random chaos (which spawned from nothing) how can we have establish rules that cannot be broken? rules, laws, or anything of that nature are byproducts of design.
but see if thats the case there has to be some form of intelligence to create the design. this is where i have problems with it all through.
if everything was created by some almighty being why would they allow such evil to happen? (I know various religions have an answer for this IE we have the freedom to choose weither we sin or not, god works in mysterious ways, thru adversity we will prosper ect.)
but i cant help but feel its like we were created but what happens to us ultimately doesn't matter. Like the creator is oblivious to us.
the closest thing i could compare this to be would be a farmer, he created the fields, tends the farms as whole and keeps the entire thing functioning.. but creatures who take up residents in farm (mircobes, incects, rodents) are just undesired byproducts of a larger system they cant comprehend
could that be us?
Its not at all about a religion, its about a personal relationship with God through our savior Jesus Christ. Does it make perfect sense to our simple minds, nope, but it makes perfect connection with our spirit and in our souls. Are we supposed to be able to understand it perfectly with our carnal minds? Nope again we never will and our constant attempts only frustrate and depress us. This is where we have to finally surrender our will and accept it all on faith. I am a man who grew up in about an abismal set of circumstances as possible to survive. Period.. When a young boy grows up in a war zone fighting for his survival each day surrender is not an option. These things are beyond conviction, these survival mechanisms formed become who you are. So you survive, but you never know what it actually feels like to live. It keeps you breathing but thats all, and unless something changes you realize finally that is as good as it will ever get. And it isnt near good enough , someday you must lay down the sword because the one you are using it on are the ones you love. The enemies are only in your mind but your habits are imbedded in your heart. Surrender is the only option left and it will require every drop of courage you have ever had. But it works, thats all i can tell is that it works. God is real, he loves me and he loves you. Does it make sense? No it does not, but it works and at some point a person has to do what works. Is what you are doing working for you? Do you have peace? Joy? Do you care? I think that you do. Try faith, what do really have to lose ?