All my family took the vaccine except for myself.
I've read all the horror stories.
It's been said that everyone vaccinated will die within 2 years or less.
Meaning my family will just die off in 2 years for taking this shitty cocktail. They wouldn't die off later if they never took it. They could've so easily declined it. I wouldn't be able to cope with their deaths.
Because of that, it makes me contemplate suicide. I figure after they die, I might as well sign up for euthanasia to die with them. By euthanasia, I'm just referring to the lethal injections that kill quickly, what they've used in the past for people that wish to die to exit their misery.
But if I can't get euthanized then I think I'll have to use a gun or noose to end my existence. I will be in too much agony and misery from my family's deaths to where only killing myself can help me get rid of the pain.
The saddest part is that I'm only 21 and already potentially so close to losing all family and having my life ruined.
None of them have yet to have any serious side effects but I know that mesns nothing because it's only been months. Months is short term. Years is long term.
I feel like a spiritually short lived, failed life already.
Assuming not a larp,
The healer, truth-seeker, mystic, shaman, etc. all walk a lonely path
Through that journey, which can be lonely at times, healing of self and others may occur.
This usually starts w/ self,
Work to level up, physically, spiritually, etc.,
Consider and research what will be waiting for you on the other side,
Research who is trying to kill you, and decide if you want to consent to it,
Research what means and methods you may have around you that have been so-placed to aide your journey, and how to start exercising them,
...
Many of us have had similar thoughts through this particular journey,
And many have walked through similar paths or even rockier, and decided to continue forging a trail,