SURE HOLD ON... HEY MOM AND DAD I NEED TO SEE YOUR DTIMER AND LIVER TESTS AND CD8 TITERS... WHATS THAT? YOU THINK IM A FUCKING LUNATIC? GREAT! YEAH THATLL WORK WHATEVER THE FUCK THOSE ARE
THATS ALL THE FUCK IVE BEEN DOING...I SWEAR TO GOD IM LOSING MY MIND... THEYRE ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL FUCKING FINEEEEE AND I HAVE NOBODY LEFT IN THIS FUCKING WORLD
I DONT KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER I CAN HOLD ON....IM SO FUCKING EMBARRASED BUT I CANT LET THEM KNOW THAT... THE RED DEER HAPPENING BROKE ME... EVERYONE IS MOVING ON AND IM FEEL LIKE A FOOL SAYING YOULL SEE YOULL SEE WHAT THE FUCK!!!!
YOU DONT THINK IVE BEEN SENDING THEM LINKS FOR THE PAST 2 YEARS? IVE TRIED EVERYTHING AND MOST OF THEM HAVE BLOCKED ME. THEY LAUGH AT ME AND POINT OUT EVERYTHING IVE GOTTEN WRONG BUT IT ISNT MY FAULT. I FEEL HOPELESS LIKE I WENT ALL IN ON THIS AND STILL FEEL LIKE IM RIGHT BUT IT GETS HARDER WITH EACH DAY. ARE THEY PRETENDING TO BE HAPPY AND FREE? ITS MAKING ME CRAZY BUT I CANT LET THEM KNOW THAT. I KNOW IM RIGHT I KNOW IM RIGHT I KNOW IM RIGHT I KNOW IM RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THEY ALREADY THINK IM A FUCKING SCHITZO BILL... IM A ROOFER NOT A DOCTOR... WHAT THE FUCK AM I GOING TO DO WITH THOSE TESTS THAT IVE NEVER HEARD OF? PRETEND I KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IM TALKING ABOUT BECAUSE BILL FROM THE INTERNET TOLD ME TO?? THATS HOW I GOT INTO THIS FUCKING MESS IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!!!!!!!!! ARRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHH WHAAAAT THEEEE FUUUUUUCKKKKKKK