God is the objective measure of all things. God loves you so much that He sent His Son to die for you. What objectively matters is your relation to God, not the world.

The most important thing is to pray and to be in a relationship with Him. Also read the book of Job as another commenter suggested, and the Philokalia a few pages every day.

God is the objective measure of all things. People are made equal only in their nothingness before God and in God's infinity within them.

Measuring our worth by our own standards or the world's standards is repeating Adam's sin of choosing the world and self over God. This sin is the original cause of suffering.

When Adam and Eve fell, the first thing they felt was shame in their appearance. God asked them "Who told you that you were naked?". Who told you to be ashamed of your race and height? God or satan?

So many people(like me) have brains that are wired in a way to make others around you hate you for just existing and being in there presence.

This is almost certainly your own perception, not theirs. The more you focus on the world's judgement, the less accurately you perceive it. God is Truth - there is no judgement but God's judgement. Judge yourself firstly by God's standard, and then you will also see the world clearly.

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I wonder why God made me the way I am.

What God wants for you is infinitely better than anything you can imagine - Romans 8:28 - "We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

God baptized you into a new Person incomparably more valuable than your old self: the Holy Spirit. St. John calls the Holy Spirit the "Spirit of Truth". It has nothing to do with ecstatic states or speaking in tongues, though these are not de facto contrary to it.

The Holy Spirit is the correct discernment of good and evil, true and false, reality and illusion, God and the world. It is not our own and it is therefore perfect. The Holy Spirit becomes operative within us when we thank God for truth and obey His commandments. Truth and obedience are never our own to take pride in; they are God's grace operating within our lives.

Suppose you could make a Faustian bargain: In exchange for the Spirit of Truth you could have everything you wanted: height, perfect social skills, 200 IQ, success, etc. However, you must spend your life as an arrogant, incorrigible provaxxer injecting kids with poison, forever blind to that one fault.

That is a thought experiment to illustrate a point: Do you identify yourself with a mind, a body, or with truth? Do you identify yourself with imperfection or the discernment by which you see it? Which kinds of truth can you part with and remain human?

What is most authentically human is never from ourselves; it is the gift of truth given to us by God's grace and there is nothing we can do to deserve it. Truth belongs to God, not ourselves, and we belong to the truth.

1 Cor. 6:19-20 - "Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies."

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Why, if God exists, does he let so many people live in constant suffering?

Addressing the first clause: God infinitely surpasses existence and nonexistence. God is not subject to existence; God is the Absolute Truth that gives reality to things like existence and nonexistence. If we doubt God then we must doubt our own doubting and even our own existence that allows us to doubt.

God's infinite reality, truth, and goodness radiate outward like sunlight and illuminate the fallen world dimly as "existence", which though imperfect is a manifestation of God's infinite love and mercy for us. He caught us before we could fall into complete darkness where there is "weeping and gnashing of teeth".

Secondly, the world and self are not God. Suffering is the perception of their distance from God. Our REAL nature is the sight God gave us to see Him.

GOD is the objective measure of all things. We see the world and ourselves by contrast with God's transcendence and because of His immanence. Whatever light exists in the world and ourselves belongs to God; by themselves they are nothing but darkness.

The eye sees shadows by contrast with light, and opacity because of reflected light. But it is obvious from the design of the eye that its function is to see light, not darkness and opacity.

In the same way, our consciousness is designed to know perfection. Our awareness of Truth, Beauty, and Virtue are analogous to the complex structures of the human eye and they are designed for GOD, not for the world and definitely not for ourselves. If we seek perfection there our suffering is guaranteed. "For you are all sons of the LIGHT and sons of the day; we do not belong to the night or to the darkness." - 1 Thessalonians 5:5

In our fallen nature we are infinitely distant from God, yet God is infinitely near to us.

Suffering and joy exist at opposite poles: thinking of ourselves leads to suffering; thinking of God leads to joy.

The eye turns its gaze toward the sun, and the sun sends its light 93 million miles down to it. From the light's perspective, the distance was never there.

In reality, no merit belongs to the world or the self in their own right. Good comes from God alone. Do we have the right to be angry at God for curing us of our blindness?

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So many people around the world are living in constant suffering and pain only they can understand

Jesus suffered in His human nature, on our behalf, so that through Him we can be REUNITED with God. Isaiah 53:5 - "He was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed." Jesus bore the collective burden of human suffering so that we can lay everything before Him in prayer. This does not mean that Christians never suffer, but that suffering leads us to seek healing from the Holy Spirit instead of falling further into the world of sin and despair.

"The Lord is near to all who call upon Him,
To all who call upon Him in truth." Ps. 145:18

The most powerful form of prayer is to have gratitude and humility for all truth, and to give our eternal soul to Jesus who bridged the gap from man to God by becoming Truth Itself incarnate. When we have faith in Jesus' life, death, and resurrection we can look forward to what God has in store for us:

"And night will be no more. They will need no light of lamp or sun, for the Lord God will be their light, and they will reign forever and ever." Rev. 22:5