Do you think you might be attributing to Jesus something that was already within you? Like using Jesus as a kind of proxy?

My mum died of cancer back in October. She was a fan of Jesus but she was barely literate. I used to go read her the Bible and stuff.

Anyway, towards the end I remember locking t phone off and taking mushrooms so I could come to terms with what was about to happen. I blindfolded my eyes, put sacred music on through my headphones and took mushrooms. I had an incredibly powerful, ancestral experience. Something I’d never felt before and after it was done I felt transported back to primitive times where communication was done through grunts and gestures. Very strange but very profound. There were lots of tears and a coming to terms.

My mum was questioning God (well the Bible god anyway) towards the end and her questions were all valid and undone the notion of god in their own right. I was pleased that she was dispelling the myth in some way but disappointed that it was only dawning on her as her death drew nearer and disappointed that she was going to face the end no longer fully comforted by a steadfast belief in his benevolence.

I read Ecclesiastes at her funeral. A time for everything.

But my experience with mushrooms that time showed me that the “pagan” way is more natural and chimed a lot more with my gentile spirit.

Do you think you might be attributing to Jesus something that was already within you? Like using Jesus as a kind of proxy?

My mum died of cancer back in October. She was a fan of Jesus but she was barely literate. I used to go read her the Bible and stuff.

Anyway, towards the end I remember locking t phone off and taking mushrooms so I could come to terms with what was about to happen. I blindfolded my eyes, put sacred music on through my headphones and took mushrooms. I had an incredibly powerful, ancestral experience. Something I’d never felt before and after it was done I felt transported back to primitive times where communication was done through grunts and gestures. Very strange but very profound. There were lots of tears and a coming to terms.

My mum was questioning God (well the Bible god anyway) towards the end and her questions were all valid and undone the notion of god in their own right. I was pleased that she was dispelling the myth in some way but disappointed that it was only dawning on her as her death drew nearer and disappointed that she was going to face the end no longer fully comforted by a steadfast belief in his benevolence.

I read Ecclesiastes at her funeral. A time for everything.

But my experience with mushrooms that time showed me that the pagan way is more natural and chimed a lot more with my gentile spirit.

Do you think you might be attributing to Jesus something that was already within you? Like using Jesus as a kind of proxy?

My mum died of cancer back in October. She was a fan of Jesus but she was barely literate. I used to go read her the Bible and stuff.

Anyway, towards the end I remember locking t phone off and taking mushrooms so I could come to terms with what was about to happen. I blindfolded my eyes, put sacred music on through my headphones and took mushrooms. I had an incredibly powerful, ancestral experience. Something I’d never felt before and after it was done I felt transported back to primitive times where communication was done through grunts and gestures. Very strange but very profound. There were lots of tears and a coming to terms.

My mum was questioning God (well the Bible god anyway) towards the end and her questions were all valid and undone the notion of god in their own right. I was pleased that she was dispelling the myth in some way but disappointed that it was only dawning on her as her death drew nearer and disappointed that she was going to face the end no longer fully comforted by a steadfast belief in his benevolence.

I read Ecclesiastes at her funeral. A time for everything.

But my experience with mushrooms that time showed me that the pagan way is more natural and chimed a lot more with my gentle spirit.

Do you think you might be attributing to Jesus something that was already within you? Like using Jesus as a kind of proxy?