Im sure I am not the only one here who thought this topic was about their self.

I lost all motivation after bush vs gore. Jesus christ I just remember most of my class mates were worried that gore would take their hunting guns away from them and besides bush was cool he was the kinda person you would want to party with.

That may be true but the jackass wasnt smart enough to run a school club im guessing, let alone the country haha.

But man I think the difference boils down to age maybe? Now that im old, and my shit just keeps getting worse. I dont have the energy to even keep a job. The only thing I have to look forward to is death.

I begged for a kidney test, begged a year for a parathyroid hormone test, another year of tests, another 6 months of waiting for a endocrinologist only to be told "its vitamin d".

I took all that vitamin d, its even just worse man. Im done for. I dont have the energy to crawl out of bed to make it to the walkin before it fills up. I cant be bothered with this anymore.

Whatever the universe's will is, so be it. Im tired of fighting whatever this is.

Society fucked me, it has done nothing for me. It has done nothing but fail me my entire fucking life.

As an appalachian, as a traumatized kid, as a white male, as a injured worker, as a someone in medical need.

Ive been laughed at, ridiculed, and still getting denied help. I can get over the poverty, the crazy shit I had to go through as a child, being poisoned with refrigerant in nova scotia, being denied the medical care.

It was being painted as some kinda schizophrenic, that is something I dont think I will be able to get over.

Im done long tetris piece, im done. Ive done nothing but suffer these last few years, I wont be sad to go.

I know you, and no one else will miss me.

Im not like you mainstreamers, im the culmination of 400 years of america frontiers people, I live by a different code then yuppies. What society is forcing me to be, is not living. Sick and poor, fuck man.

One of these days people will wake the fuck up, but it wont be anytime soon.

Cant get your hopes smashed if you never get them up to begin with.

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I will add, I am not the only one who feels this way I know. But im proably one of very few being denied timely medical care.

https://np.reddit.com/r/canada/comments/1emdp6o/national_poll_finds_majority_of_canadians_are/

This comment really resonated with me earlier.

Canada has become a shell of its former self and there isn’t a lot of us who are “proud” to be Canadian anymore. We are tired of being stepped on and sold out by the people who are meant to lead us.

I know if the feds tried to make me join the army or become a combatant for any reason, I’d dodge that draft and flee the country - even if Canada itself was being invaded.

I’ve seen how they treat us, how we treat each other, what our future looks like. Im not getting shot at or dying for that lol.

Society better hope it never needs us. If this was all some giant pysop from some invading army, well done, you won.

Im sure I am not the only one here who thought this topic was about their self.

I lost all motivation after bush vs gore. Jesus christ I just remember most of my class mates were worried that gore would take their hunting guns away from them and besides bush was cool he was the kinda person you would want to party with.

That may be true but the jackass wasnt smart enough to run a school club im guessing, let alone the country haha.

But man I think the difference boils down to age maybe? Now that im old, and my shit just keeps getting worse. I dont have the energy to even keep a job. The only thing I have to look forward to is death.

I begged for a kidney test, begged a year for a parathyroid hormone test, another year of tests, another 6 months of waiting for a endocrinologist only to be told "its vitamin d".

I took all that vitamin d, its even just worse man. Im done for. I dont have the energy to crawl out of bed to make it to the walkin before it fills up. I cant be bothered with this anymore.

Whatever the universe's will is, so be it. Im tired of fighting whatever this is.

Society fucked me, it has done nothing for me. It has done nothing but fail me my entire fucking life.

As an appalachian, as a traumatized kid, as a white male, as a injured worker, as a someone in medical need.

Ive been laughed at, ridiculed, and still getting denied help. I can get over the poverty, the crazy shit I had to go through as a child, being poisoned with refrigerant in nova scotia, being denied the medical care.

It was being painted as some kinda schizophrenic, that is something I dont think I will be able to get over.

Im done long tetris piece, im done. Ive done nothing but suffer these last few years, I wont be sad to go.

I know you, and no one else will miss me.

Im not like you mainstreamers, im the culmination of 400 years of america frontiers people, I live by a different code then yuppies. What society is forcing me to be, is not living. Sick and poor, fuck man.

One of these days people will wake the fuck up, but it wont be anytime soon.

Cant get your hopes smashed if you never get them up to begin with.