you know what i'll avoid talks of philosophy and conspiracy.

ive decided to possibly sell my soul to satan if its real and im seriously undergoing the process of learning this legitimately and self initiating myself.

i am then going to attempt to perform serious rituals and actually follow the path of the higher level initiates in really seriously doing it and im going to figure out what happens.

theres a good chance after a certain point, regardless of my findings, i may not be able to report back about whatever happened.

however if it is all bullshit and just buddhism repackaged in rituals and symbolism which i pretty much think i do understand at this point like look jungian psychology.

if there is more than that well, ive sold my soul and at that point i guess i'll also be sworn to some level of secrecy and disinfo because it seems like everyone is. but absolutely nobody denies you can achieve pretty much all the same ends with zen buddhism

at my current understanding ritual is the equivalent of buddhist meditation through ritual and invoking of God and the other planetary entities/old gods/and energies around us to instigate various states of trance and self work such as shadow work. the big 'secret' to initiating yourself is to see if any of the stuff is more than just symbolic of the metaphysical concepts -- although the mystery schools have this weird encryption and symbolism stuff which is part of the initiatory system to understand the hidden messages.

im slightly worried because if it is actually in some way real the hidden stuff behind things and not just getting on the sex cult fun which im not gonna do ever btw not interested im just seeing if the magic part is real without that part. be honest my way is gonna be boring and monkish with me doing rituals that probably do nothing RPing sorceror in a bedroom.

but if it is real imma find out because im doing this all the way with serious intent after years of studying conspiracies and basically being ready to do it for real.

so imma find out. no matter what i guess im gonna in on the club whenever im done on some level whether im in the club or not i'll understand it.

like im not playing wicca here im doing a serious conspiracy investigation into the occult by joining it and going all the way -- this isnt gonna be some stupid teenage religion demon altar stuff. im going to do the serious rituals to try to contact the entities that all the serious people do.

im gonna like invoke everything and do the entire procedure and at least become a mid-level initiate within 2-3 years probably. i'll try to summon everything even like God.

anyway ive decided to really test reality and see if i get possessed by demons or gain some form of enlightenment that probably doesnt exist.

you know what i'll avoid talks of philosophy and conspiracy.

ive decided to possibly sell my soul to satan if its real and im seriously undergoing the process of learning this legitimately and self initiating myself.

i am then going to attempt to perform serious rituals and actually follow the path of the higher level initiates in really seriously doing it and im going to figure out what happens.

theres a good chance after a certain point, regardless of my findings, i may not be able to report back about whatever happened.

however if it is all bullshit and just buddhism repackaged in rituals and symbolism which i pretty much think i do understand at this point like look jungian psychology.

if there is more than that well, ive sold my soul and at that point i guess i'll also be sworn to some level of secrecy and disinfo because it seems like everyone is. but absolutely nobody denies you can achieve pretty much all the same ends with zen buddhism

at my current understanding ritual is the equivalent of buddhist meditation through ritual and invoking of God and the other planetary entities/old gods/and energies around us to instigate various states of trance and self work such as shadow work. the big 'secret' to initiating yourself is to see if any of the stuff is more than just symbolic of the metaphysical concepts -- although the mystery schools have this weird encryption and symbolism stuff which is part of the initiatory system to understand the hidden messages.

im slightly worried because if it is actually in some way real the hidden stuff behind things and not just getting on the sex cult fun which im not gonna do ever btw not interested im just seeing if the magic part is real without that part. be honest my way is gonna be boring and monkish with me doing rituals that probably do nothing RPing sorceror in a bedroom.

but if it is real imma find out because im doing this all the way with serious intent after years of studying conspiracies and basically being ready to do it for real.

so imma find out. no matter what i guess im gonna in on the club whenever im done on some level whether im in the club or not i'll understand it.

like im not playing wicca here im doing a serious conspiracy investigation into the occult by joining it and going all the way -- this isnt gonna be some stupid teenage religion demon altar stuff. im going to do the serious rituals to try to contact the entities that all the serious people do.

im gonna like invoke everything and do the entire procedure and at least become a mid-level initiate within 2-3 years probably. i'll try to summon everything even like God.

you know what i'll avoid talks of philosophy and conspiracy.

ive decided to possibly sell my soul to satan if its real and im seriously undergoing the process of learning this legitimately and self initiating myself.

i am then going to attempt to perform serious rituals and actually follow the path of the higher level initiates in really seriously doing it and im going to figure out what happens.

theres a good chance after a certain point, regardless of my findings, i may not be able to report back about whatever happened.

however if it is all bullshit and just buddhism repackaged in rituals and symbolism which i pretty much think i do understand at this point like look jungian psychology.

if there is more than that well, ive sold my soul and at that point i guess i'll also be sworn to some level of secrecy and disinfo because it seems like everyone is. but absolutely nobody denies you can achieve pretty much all the same ends with zen buddhism

at my current understanding ritual is the equivalent of buddhist meditation through ritual and invoking of God and the other planetary entities/old gods/and energies around us to instigate various states of trance and self work such as shadow work. the big 'secret' to initiating yourself is to see if any of the stuff is more than just symbolic of the metaphysical concepts -- although the mystery schools have this weird encryption and symbolism stuff which is part of the initiatory system to understand the hidden messages.

im slightly worried because if it is actually in some way real the hidden stuff behind things and not just getting on the sex cult fun which im not gonna do ever btw not interested im just seeing if the magic part is real without that part. be honest my way is gonna be boring and monkish with me doing rituals that probably do nothing RPing sorceror in a bedroom.

but if it is real imma find out because im doing this all the way with serious intent after years of studying conspiracies and basically being ready to do it for real.

so imma find out. no matter what i guess im gonna in on the club whenever im done on some level whether im in the club or not i'll understand it.

like im not playing wicca here im doing a serious conspiracy investigation into the occult by joining it and going all the way -- this isnt gonna be some stupid teenage religion demon altar stuff. im going to do the serious rituals to try to contact the entities that all the serious people do.

im gonna like invoke everything and do the entire procedure and at least become a mid-level initiate within 2-3 years probably.

you know what i'll avoid talks of philosophy and conspiracy.

ive decided to possibly sell my soul to satan if its real and im seriously undergoing the process of learning this legitimately and self initiating myself.

i am then going to attempt to perform serious rituals and actually follow the path of the higher level initiates in really seriously doing it and im going to figure out what happens.

theres a good chance after a certain point, regardless of my findings, i may not be able to report back about whatever happened.

however if it is all bullshit and just buddhism repackaged in rituals and symbolism which i pretty much think i do understand at this point like look jungian psychology.

if there is more than that well, ive sold my soul and at that point i guess i'll also be sworn to some level of secrecy and disinfo because it seems like everyone is. but absolutely nobody denies you can achieve pretty much all the same ends with zen buddhism

at my current understanding ritual is the equivalent of buddhist meditation through ritual and invoking of God and the other planetary entities/old gods/and energies around us to instigate various states of trance and self work such as shadow work. the big 'secret' to initiating yourself is to see if any of the stuff is more than just symbolic of the metaphysical concepts -- although the mystery schools have this weird encryption and symbolism stuff which is part of the initiatory system to understand the hidden messages.

im slightly worried because if it is actually in some way real the hidden stuff behind things and not just getting on the sex cult fun which im not gonna do ever btw not interested im just seeing if the magic part is real without that part. be honest my way is gonna be boring and monkish with me doing rituals that probably do nothing RPing sorceror in a bedroom.

but if it is real imma find out because im doing this all the way with serious intent after years of studying conspiracies and basically being ready to do it for real.

so imma find out. no matter what i guess im gonna in on the club whenever im done on some level whether im in the club or not i'll understand it.

like im not playing wicca here im doing a serious conspiracy investigation into the occult by joining it and going all the way -- this isnt gonna be some stupid teenage religion demon altar stuff. im going to do the serious rituals to try to contact the entities that all the serious people do.

im gonna like invoke everything and do the entire procedure and at least become a mid-level initiate within 2-3 years probably.

you know what i'll avoid talks of philosophy and conspiracy.

ive decided to possibly sell my soul to satan if its real and im seriously undergoing the process of learning this legitimately and self initiating myself.

i am then going to attempt to perform serious rituals and actually follow the path of the higher level initiates in really seriously doing it and im going to figure out what happens.

theres a good chance after a certain point, regardless of my findings, i may not be able to report back about whatever happened.

however if it is all bullshit and just buddhism repackaged in rituals and symbolism which i pretty much think i do understand at this point like look jungian psychology.

if there is more than that well, ive sold my soul and at that point i guess i'll also be sworn to some level of secrecy and disinfo because it seems like everyone is. but absolutely nobody denies you can achieve pretty much all the same ends with zen buddhism

at my current understanding ritual is the equivalent of buddhist meditation through ritual and invoking of God and the other planetary entities/old gods/and energies around us to instigate various states of trance and self work such as shadow work. the big 'secret' to initiating yourself is to see if any of the stuff is more than just symbolic of the metaphysical concepts -- although the mystery schools have this weird encryption and symbolism stuff which is part of the initiatory system to understand the hidden messages.

im slightly worried because if it is actually in some way real the hidden stuff behind things and not just getting on the sex cult fun which im not gonna do ever btw not interested im just seeing if the magic part is real without that part. be honest my way is gonna be boring and monkish with me doing rituals that probably do nothing RPing sorceror in a bedroom.

but if it is real imma find out because im doing this all the way with serious intent after years of studying conspiracies and basically being ready to do it for real.

so imma find out. no matter what i guess im gonna in on the club whenever im done on some level whether im in the club or not i'll understand it.

you know what i'll avoid talks of philosophy and conspiracy.

ive decided to possibly sell my soul to satan if its real and im seriously undergoing the process of learning this legitimately and self initiating myself.

i am then going to attempt to perform serious rituals and actually follow the path of the higher level initiates in really seriously doing it and im going to figure out what happens.

theres a good chance after a certain point, regardless of my findings, i may not be able to report back about whatever happened.

however if it is all bullshit and just buddhism repackaged in rituals and symbolism which i pretty much think i do understand at this point like look jungian psychology.

if there is more than that well, ive sold my soul and at that point i guess i'll also be sworn to some level of secrecy and disinfo because it seems like everyone is. but absolutely nobody denies you can achieve pretty much all the same ends with zen buddhism

at my current understanding ritual is the equivalent of buddhist meditation through ritual and invoking of God and the other planetary entities/old gods/and energies around us to instigate various states of trance and self work such as shadow work. the big 'secret' to initiating yourself is to see if any of the stuff is more than just symbolic of the metaphysical concepts -- although the mystery schools have this weird encryption and symbolism stuff which is part of the initiatory system to understand the hidden messages.

im slightly worried because if it is actually in some way real the hidden stuff behind things and not just getting on the sex cult fun which im not gonna do ever btw not interested im just seeing if the magic part is real without that part. be honest my way is gonna be boring and monkish with me doing rituals that probably do nothing RPing sorceror in a bedroom.

but if it is real imma find out because im doing this all the way with serious intent after years of studying conspiracies and basically being ready to do it for real.

so imma find out.

you know what i'll avoid talks of philosophy and conspiracy.

ive decided to possibly sell my soul to satan if its real and im seriously undergoing the process of learning this legitimately and self initiating myself.

i am then going to attempt to perform serious rituals and actually follow the path of the higher level initiates in really seriously doing it and im going to figure out what happens.

theres a good chance after a certain point, regardless of my findings, i may not be able to report back about whatever happened.

however if it is all bullshit and just buddhism repackaged in rituals and symbolism which i pretty much think i do understand at this point like look jungian psychology.

if there is more than that well, ive sold my soul and at that point i guess i'll also be sworn to some level of secrecy and disinfo because it seems like everyone is. but absolutely nobody denies you can achieve pretty much all the same ends with zen buddhism

im slightly worried because if it is actually in some way real the hidden stuff behind things and not just getting on the sex cult fun which im not gonna do ever btw not interested im just seeing if the magic part is real without that part. be honest my way is gonna be boring and monkish with me doing rituals that probably do nothing RPing sorceror in a bedroom.

but if it is real imma find out because im doing this all the way with serious intent after years of studying conspiracies and basically being ready to do it for real.

so imma find out.

you know what i'll avoid talks of philosophy and conspiracy.

ive decided to possibly sell my soul to satan if its real and im seriously undergoing the process of learning this legitimately and self initiating myself.

i am then going to attempt to perform serious rituals and actually follow the path of the higher level initiates in really seriously doing it and im going to figure out what happens.

theres a good chance after a certain point, regardless of my findings, i may not be able to report back about whatever happened.

however if it is all bullshit and just buddhism repackaged in rituals and symbolism which i pretty much think i do understand at this point like look jungian psychology.

if there is more than that well, ive sold my soul and at that point i guess i'll also be sworn to some level of secrecy and disinfo because it seems like everyone is. but absolutely nobody denies you can achieve pretty much all the same ends with zen buddhism