It sounds like you're just afraid to trust yourself. I explained gravity is just an acceleration force, it's not magic. Earth's gravity has been measured at 9.8 m/s². You can feel the earth pushing back on your body, preventing you from traveling downward.
You have been lied to but not by the physics professors. It's not your fault for going down the wrong rabbit hole. Not everything is a conspiracy. There are precious few facts we can rely on these days, but modern physics is still reliable. It's unfortunate that you're living in the world you're living in, but I understand.
It sounds like you're just afraid to trust yourself. I explained gravity is just an acceleration force, it's not magic. Earth's gravity has been measured at 9.8 m/s². You can feel the earth pushing back on your body, preventing you from traveling downward.
You have been lied to but not by the physics professors. It's not your fault for going down the wrong rabbit hole. Not everything is a conspiracy. There are precious few facts we can rely on these days, but modern physics is still reliable. It's unfortunate that you're living in the world you're living in, but I understand.