^^^this Also, true Christianity is so small that it poses little threat to The World. (For now- think Gideon) But make no mistake, what we have is extremely powerful. We cannot be bribed, our treasure is not of this earth. We do not spend time gathering unto ourselves but learning to give to others. Death is expected. OP, what you call evil others call good. What you are experiencing is that sliver of your soul and God Spark that CARES.
I have always been critical of everything. I loved Jesus but I was certainly short on answers. It wasn’t until I read the Bible (KJV)cover to cover that the language of God gave me a certain understanding. It’s not that I’m a KJV only-est it’s something about the grammar structure. Salvation is only through Jesus Christ. I am not going to say I understood everything I read. But along the way I heard things that illuminated it. I cannot explain it. But, I am different. How are you going to reconcile that what you call suffering is good by the majority. Even the locals cause huge suffering with their bad choices. It’s not a globalist thing. But what makes choices bad? Selfishness, pride, covetousness, sloth, hatred. Etc.