I tried for a while but going from a life of zero stress and no worries to having to worry about my next paycheck and having to rebuild some form of retirement that I already worked so hard for causes me such emotional pain now idk it's hard to try and enjoy anything I can "make back" through labor now.

It's like the last 12 years of my adult working life was for nothing and time I will never get back. Time I didn't enjoy at all because of the work it took to get where I was.

Not being able to now provide the life I created and further invisioned for my wife and family is actually the worst part of it all. I wanted to be successful for them not me. That hits the hardest.

Woe is me though. Thanks for the positivity.

I tried for a while but going from a life of zero stress and no worries to having to worry about my next paycheck and having to rebuild some form of retirement that I already worked so hard for causes me such emotional pain now idk it's hard to try and enjoy anything I can "make back" through labor now.

It's like the last 12 years of my adult working life was for nothing and time I will never get back. Time I didn't enjoy at all because of the work it took to get where I was.

Woe is me though. Thanks for the positivity.