Exatcly dude. This is the kind of bros in this community that are good. The ones that can read between the lines. I thought about Nietzsche too, and you said it out loud - Nietzsche got insane too, other brother said that to me. Wasnt Nietzsche that said God is dead? Nihilism have its benefits, but taking it to extremes is bad for you. Point about knowing the truth is one thing, but practicing it is when things start (resistance of evil). Everyone has a free will and knock and it will be open. But God wont give you what you want, he will give you what you need. The commandments are important and there are lots of things like pearls before swine, not everybody is yo be called a brother, dont love parents or sons more than God. Its a challenge to avoid sinning but you only learn about your flesh the moment you start living in the Holy Spirit. Things like repentance, confession, prayers, are important. In the end everything is our fault (for letting the world corrupt us or being inclined to our sinful nature. The other thing is the powers of this world, wickedness in higher places, they are constantly pushing love of gold and lust eveywhere (sex sells) and poisoning the well.