When I was a kid, a “friend” who I smoked cigarettes with (maybe once a week behind the school) gave me a pcp/lsd laced cigarette as a “joke”. I woke up on my couch (somehow ended up home), still “tripping” and saw an angel hovering over me. It looked like a warrior holding a sword standing guard. It was pure light, but angry. I know I was still “tripping” or hallucinating (who knows) but I had the image inked on my shoulder.
I didn’t feel “violated”, but I still beat the shit out of my “friend” the next day. Because wtf.
Reminds me of a friend in military, he went to prison because he beat a dude to death with a hotel shower head for giving him a roofie in Seattle bar.. and he definitely knew he was violated. Seems justified but that’s the system we are in.
I had my dealings
Often it's people tolerating abuse but then letting it boiling inside like alien the movie, until they are ready to pass it again.
Often they let it boil and expand so that it become a life long perversion.
There is a story in chinese folklore of the water gui, a ghost who live in lakes, who tryies to grab and drawn anyone who comes by, then take their body and is alive again, while the guy becomes the new ghost. Similar dynamic.
They get "swapped" and try to swap back anytime they can, except they can't. They just try to make everyone as destroyed as they are. If you give a hand they don't get up, but pull you down with all they got... Possibly under them.
Yes it's enraging and it's somewhat scary to look into the eyes of someone who is clearly trying to deceive and suck you. You know they have less to lose, or perhaps better protection, etc.
I don't remember the organization name, but there was a small group somewhere in america or UK for example like "satan angels" or smth, that were hellbound on finding people with bad karma who subcosciounsly wanted to be punished.
Obviously they felt free to make up their mind on that, and take anything they believe could be implyied, soul level consent as consent. A small expression, a favor, whatever. Perhaps mix in some protestant logic of "if i can do it then it means god meant for him to deserve it".
Anyway they would befriend random people and once gained trust and obtained a "signal" they would torture and murder them in private.
Kek the more i'm alive the more i know i'm gonna be a Malocchio Moody type of character, going around quiet never leaving my water bottle more than 10 cm from my body. Best i can do is avoiding the moody part.