Really glad to see you over here friend.

I appreciate some of the things you said about me over in /r/con. Difficult to sift through what amounts to a digital lynching to see anything positive, so it's nice to see some folks realize that my absence is going to become increasingly apparent.

It's kinda sad that 10+ years of my life dedicated to that forum could be reduced to threats and slander, but so is the way of the world at the present moment, I suppose. People need their daily dose of 2 minute hate.

I predict that without me, there will be a lack of cohesion and vision on the mod team. It's not just the round table discussions (my initiative and project) that will suffer, but I also took the charge on the featured documentaries, maintained regular relevant stickies, arranged AMAs, and was the only one that did the sidebar pic.

You'll notice that there's been no sidebar image since my removal. I'm not even sure the remaining mods know how to do it properly, and I doubt their ability to consistently pick the right one. An artistic eye is required, as well as being extremely in tune with the sub and the general conspiracy trends.

While mods like AATA do the grunt work in cleaning up the nitty gritty on the sub, I became its ideological heart, for better or for worse. By unceremoniously removing me at such a pivotal time on the internet and the world in general, it dealt a devastating blow to the sub, and I wonder if/how it will recover.

It's been only days and I feel like a ghost, it's strange. Years of my life, and boom gone because I "incited violence"? I was one of the first "big names" to fall, at least 24 hours before the great Twitter purge. It's sad that everyone assumes I broke the rules, when no one even knows what I did, they just assume I deserved it because they read some nasty things about me once.

Note the admins DID NOT give examples of what I did. That's because it would make them look extremely foolish.

It's pretty clear what happened here. A Senator complained about "reddit conspiracies" leading to unrest on the 6th. Reddit inc had to act, so they opted to come after me to generate the headline to show they did something.

I'm disappointed in the /r/con mod tean for not speaking up more for me. AATA's message was thoughtful, but he's allowed a clearly brigaded thread with all kinds of rule violations against me remained pinned for days. Barely any regular users defending me. I'm not complaining or "woe-is-me"-ing, I just find the whole thing fascinating and deeply regrettable.

It's really weird to see this artificial consensus being pushed that I'm some terrible anti-semite and I single-handed destroyed the sub.

Even you seem to think I'm some sort of diehard Trump supporter. In what thread did I ever say that? What comment? I was critical of Trump from the beginning. I got called a Trump supporter when I didn't immediately believe in russiagate, and they've been accusing me of that ever since.

It also was blatant that they stole the election from Trump. I hope you realize that the "Trojan Horse Trump" theory and election fraud are mutually compatible, right?

Like, I could see that Trump was used to string along the gullible, and to create a clearly stolen election in a false flag scenario to undermine the public's trust in the electoral system.

But even so, it was still important to talk about it! And so I did! I wasn't just going to shut up on election fraud when I saw election fraud, Trump or otherwise. If it had gone the other way, I would've still talked about it! It didn't have anything to do with Trump.

I never went all in on Trump. But at the same time, I aggressively defended those who supported him, because I could see them having their voices marginalized and silenced. I cared more about defending Trump's supporters than Trump. As a conspiracy theorist, I feel obligated to root for the underdog in these situations.

Over time, I hope I get a chance to better flesh out my thoughts on what went down with my removal and over the past, present and future of /r/conspiracy and reddit.

I do take comfort in the fact that I'm convinced my removal saved the sub, even if only temporarily. If they didn't do something, it would've looked atrocious. Removing me generated the headlines they needed.

If I hadn't been as vocal and opinionated, there wouldn't have been a visible and "unpopular" enough mod (among the TMOR/SRD crowd) whose removal would've been significant enough to placate the mob.

I was sacrificed for /r/conspiracy, that much is clear. I wonder, how many more people sees what I see?

Please keep posting here...you'll never be censored. Folks like you are what made me love /r/conspiracy.

I'll be here (hopefully) if you ever need!

-AP